Posted by: joha5 | June 17, 2010

Sleep Struggles: An Insomniac’s Impression

One of the most irritating and unacceptable things that can happen to an individual is to have their sleep interrupted.  I know you know what I am talking about.  Sometimes it is an outside source that is the cause of an interruption like an alarm, a person, extraneous noises from outside the window, the doorbell, the television, or even the temperature.  Other times it can be something internal that causes your sleep to be interrupted such as stress, your thirst, or even something as simple as not being able to get comfortable no matter how tired you are.  I have had a couple of sleepless nights over the past week and the effect that it has on me the next day or two is devastating.

My problem has been more the latter than the former.  I just can’t quite seem to reach that equilibrium one needs to get to that point of sleep.  I wake up and I’m too hot so I take off the blankets, drink some water, and shut my eyes hoping that I can fall asleep quickly and easily.  Except that something tells me inside that I won’t be able to fall asleep as fast as I want to.  I don’t know what it is but I know that sleep will be a struggle.  So now I try everything to expedite the sleeping process.  I lie on my back, I spread out.  I curl up in a ball, I lie on my left side, I lie on my right side, I turn over onto my stomach.  Nothing works.  I try to clear my mind of everything but the more I try to clear my mind, the faster my mind races and the hotter and more frustrated I get.  My eyelids are heavy so I know my body wants to sleep but nothing works. 

This is EXACTLY what it feels like when I can't sleep.

I figure that there must be some underlying cause of this.  Maybe it is stress or maybe it is the temperature or maybe a combination of many things.  I don’t know what it is.  All I know is that whenever this happens I wake up the next day feeling absolutely exhausted, frustrated, tired, and almost angry with my body for betraying me so badly for the previous 7 hours or so.  Just knowing that I have to face the day after it has started off so badly makes me even more irritated because I also know that it will be at least another 16 hours or so until I can crawl back into bed and attempt the whole process all over again. 

Some days I can recover quite nicely and I am not sure why this is either.  I guess if I keep myself busy or have plenty of things to do then it is quickly forgotten about and my body is able to run on reserve energy.  However, other days my body just doesn’t want anything to do as far as interacting with the rest of the world.  I have to force my eyes to stay open, I can’t concentrate, and my mind jumps around like a kangaroo on speed.  Ironically, I would almost rather keep myself busy the day after a bad night of sleep because if I have nothing to do but lie around my house all day then that is essentially what I do – and I feel disgusting for it.  You would think that lazing around the house all day would be the optimal choice but it isn’t.  You are never able to quite catch up on your sleep like you would after getting a good night of rest and being lazy only really serves to make me more tired than I even was originally.

Homer Simpson makes laziness look incredible.

Thankfully, a bad night of sleep is a rare occurence for me and I don’t have to deal with it nearly as much as an insomniac would.  It isn’t so much that I enjoy sleep it is just that I need it so badly to function.  Everybody does, obviously, but I feel like I particularly need it to function.  The good thing about sleep is that it is never too far away but the bad thing about sleep is that it often just feels so far away.  Last night I tossed and I turned and I flipped and I flopped and I just could not get to sleep to save my life.  Even though I feel like death at this very moment I just have to tell myself that sleep is never more than just a few hours away.



  1. People who say they sleep like a baby usually don’t have one.(Leo J. Burke)

    Your first pic suggests to me that you neglected to draw the curtains.

    • Hey H! First of all, I LOVE your flag icon. I think I probably haven’t been getting much sleep specifically because I am thinking about the Group C matches tomorrow! And funny that you mention it, I don’t actually have a curtain in my room which probably would help in the long run!

  2. this is so embarrassing..its 2.30am where I am suffering from insomnia when I saw your delightful post…how apt!! 🙂

    And since I am among many who are boycotting the Singapore providers of world cup telecast who are charging crazy rates this year…soccer is not the wonderful reason as it would have been 4 years ago.

    I know I should read a book before bed instead of being on the computer, which leaves me so wired up… it’s like I’m on 10 cups of coffee…maybe tomorrow….

    Am I abnormal to need at least 9 hours of sleep a day? or more!!

    • I am SO glad to know that I am not absolutely insane for not being able to sleep from time to time…and it makes it even better that you couldn’t sleep when you commented on this post! I love it!!

  3. Jon, the secret is chamomile tea!! Try it 🙂

    • I actually think I am going to try this the next time I can’t sleep. I just hate the process of making hot drinks so maybe all that work will make me even more tired than I was in the first place. Thanks for sharing your hints and tips on how to get a better nights sleep!

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